Over the years I have helped many people overcome issues with wellness, addiction, abuse and self-harm. Let’s start with my story, but instead of my history we will start with my history of addiction and self-harm. The first time I started to act out addiction was in 6th grade. But the reasons for the behavior started much earlier. As a result of some the beliefs I learned growing up and some bullying that I endured around 1st grade I formed some false beliefs about myself. I formed a belief that I was worth less than others. This idea still colors the way I see the world today. I have not felt worthy many times since this early experiences. The feelings I have had affect me to this day, they have colored my values and beliefs which in turn have shaped my actions and thus produced the effects that I am currently experiencing.
One of those beliefs that I formed was that I was less than or not as good as other people. Once this belief was formed it was easy to find information to back up this belief. I piled on evidence that lead me to believe that others would not accept or love me for who I was. My deepest desire was to be accepted and loved for who I was. My fear that I would not be loved, shadowed everything in my life. I stuck to small groups and did not allow myself to talk to girls or date for most of my teen years. This further created fear and pain and put up roadblocks to acceptance. I was very uncomfortable around others until much later in my life. This feeling stunted how I could relate to others and which type of person I related too. My basis was still that I was unlovable and less important than others. Luckily I broke this cycle before getting married I took a program that gave me a feeling of worth and helped me be more emotionally healthy than ever before.
So does this sound familiar? Do you feel similar? Have you felt unlovable and unworthy? What is it that you have used to back up and provide as proof of your lack of worth? What are the things that you do not do and who do you not reach out to because of the feelings you are experiencing? If this year is to be different what will you do now to make this change? Reach out now and let’s talk and develop an individual program that can help you overcome the issues that have been holding you down and causing feelings of pain from the trauma that you experienced in your life. Start today to change your future! Email me for your Free 30 min coaching call, let’s see what an amazing life you can create!